The Diary - Lonely

Feel so lonely.....

You're so close but yet so far...

The Diary - EMPTY

I feel so lonely...
I miss you so bad...
I miss you like hell...!

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Something's lost inside me. It's like something's taken away from me ever since you went.

You know, I work hard every day just to wish that time will fly,

days gone by so fast, that we can see each other again very soon...

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It's painfull, but somehow it's very sweet...

It's a sweet pain because of having you...

Yes, I feel empty...

But it's not for good, because I know we will be together again.

I cherish every moment with you, and that's another one good reason for me to survive.

Maybe this is just me being at the lowest point of my curve.

I miss you.... you... and only you....

I miss everything about you...

I miss you smile...

I miss your kisses...

I miss your hugs...

I miss your touch...

I miss your voice...

I miss the sweet smell of your body...

I miss your eyes...

I miss holding hands with you...

I miss the jokes we share...

I miss having coffee with you...

I miss smoking with you...

I miss your stories...

I miss dancing with you...

I miss leaning on to your shoulder...

I miss you like CRAZY...!!!

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[when missing isn't the sweetest part of life....]

Emotions - Destiny's Child

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotions taking me over
Tied up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know that
there'll be nobody left in this world
To hold me tight
Don't you know that
there'll be nobody left in this world
To kiss goodnight

The Diary; Kinda screwed up!

Can't get you off my mind
by Lenny Kravitz

Life is just a lonely highway
I’m out here on the open road
I’m old enough to see behind me
But young enough to feel my soul

I don’t wanna lose you baby
And I don’t wanna be alone
Don’t wanna live my days without you
But for now I’ve got to be without you

I’ve got a pocket full of money
And pocket full of keys that have no bounds
But then I think of lovin’
And I just can’t get you off of my mind...

Babe can’t you see
That this is killing me!
I don’t want to push you, baby
And I don’t want you to be told
It’s just that I can’t breathe without you
Feel like I’m gonna lose control...

I’ve got a pocket full of money
And a pocket full of keys that have no bounds
But when it comes to lovin’
I just can’t get you off of my mind...

Am I a fool to think
that there’s a little hope?
Tell me baby....
What are the rules
the reasons and the do’s and don’ts
Tell me, baby
What do you feel inside?

I’ve got a pocket full of money
And a pocket full of keys that have no bounds
But when it comes down to lovin’
I just can’t get you off of my mind....

The Diary; Angel -- Sarah McLachlan

spend all your time waiting

for that second chance

for a break that would make it okay

there's always one reason

to feel not good enough

and it's hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction

oh beautiful release

memory seeps from my veinslet me be empty

and weightless and maybe

I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel

fly away from here

from this dark cold hotel room

and the endlessness that you fear

you are pulled from the wreckage

of your silent reverie

you're in the arms of the angel

may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line

and everywhere you turn

there's vultures and thieves at your back

and the storm keeps on twisting

you keep on building the lie

that you make up for all that you lack

it don't make no difference

escaping one last time

it's easier to believe in this sweet madness

this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel

fly away from here

from this dark cold hotel room

and the endlessness that you fear

you are pulled from the wreckage

of your silent reverie

you're in the arms of the angel

may you find some comfort there

you're in the arms of the angel

may you find some comfort here

The Diary; I Could Fall In Love

I could lose my heart tonight
If you don't turn and walk away
'Cause the way I feel

I might lose control and let you stay
'Cause I could take you in my arms
And never let go...

I could fall in love with you

I could only wonder how
Touching you would make me feel
But if I take that chance right now
Tomorrow will you want me still?
So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know...

I could fall in love with you

And I know it's not right
And I guess I should try to do what I should do
But I could fall in love with you...

Siempre estoy soñada en ti
Besandos mis labios, acariciando mi piel
Abrazadome con ansias locas
Imaginando que me amos
Cómo yo podia amar a ti

So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know
I could fall in love with you....

The Diary; I Love The Way You Love Me

I like the feel of your name on my lips

And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss

The way that your fingers run through my hair

And how your scent lingers even when you're not there
And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh

And how you enjoy your two-hour bath

And how you've convinced me to dance in the rain

With everyone watching like we were insane
But I love the way you love me

Strong and wild, slow and easy

Heart and soul so completely

I love the way you love me
And I like the sound of old R 'n' B

But you roll your eyes when I'm sloppily off key

And I like the innocent way that you cry

From sappy old movies you've seen thousands of times
But I love the way you love me

Strong and wild, slow and easy

Heart and soul so completely

I love the way you love me
And I could list a million things

I love to like about you

But they could all come down to one reason

I could never live without you
I love the way you love me

Strong and wild, Slow and easy

Heart and soul so completely

I love the way you love me

The Diary; Lonely Morning -- Feel so empty

ONE LAST BREATH
CREED

Please come now
I think I’m falling
I’m holding on to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I’m trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I’m down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say...
Hold me now...
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking...
That maybe six feet ain’t so far down

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I’m looking down now that it’s over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in his grace
I cried out, heaven save me!
But I’m down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say...
Hold me now...
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking....
That maybe six feet ain’t so far down...

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Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there’s something left for me
So please come stay with me
‘Cause I still believe there’s something left for you and me
Hold me now...
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking
Maybe six feet ain't so far down....

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The Diary; Lonely Morning

Suatu Persembahan Cinta
A song by Chrisye feat. Element

Jelas diriku t’lah mencintaimu
Tak pernah ‘ku biarkan apapun menyakiti hatimu, cintaku
Jelas hatiku t’lah menyayangimu
Tak pernah ada rasa selain ‘ku rasakan cintamu

Kau yang membuat diriku
merasa berarti menjalani segalanya
‘Ku ingin bersamamu
ku ingin cintamu untuk selamanya

Tulusnya cintamu t’lah membuat hatiku mengerti
Selama ini yang ‘ku cari hanyalah dirimu, kekasihku

Dan tak akan ‘ku biarkan kau jauh dari diriku
Hampa yang ‘ku rasa tanpamu
Dan tak akan ‘ku lepaskan semua tentang dirimu
Tak ingin ‘ku tanpa dirimu

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A Love Devotion

It is clear that I have loved you
I will never let anything hurt you, my love
It is clear that my heart have fallen for you
There is no feelings but your love

You are the one who makes me

Feel so meaningful in living my life
I want to be with you
I want your love forever

Your true love have made my heart see
You are the one

that I have been searching for, my love

And I am not going to let you apart from me
I feel empty without you
And I am not going to let go of you
I don’t want to be without you

[for Jerome --- with all my Love]

The Diary; Aku Ingin

Aku Ingin

I wish

by Sapardi Djoko Damono

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana....

I wish to love you in a simple way...

Dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan kayu,

with all the unsaid words from the woods,

kepada api yang menjadikannya abu...

to the fire that burnt it to ashes...

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana....

I wish to love you in a simple way...

Dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan awan,

with all the unsent signs from the clouds,

kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada....

to the rain that drove it to emptiness....

[taken from "Cinta Dalam Sepotong Roti", a movie by Garin Nugroho]

The Diary; Cintai Diriku... [Love Me]

CINTAI DIRIKU

[Love Me]

taken from a song by Reza

Cintai diriku seperti aku mencintaimu....

love me like I love you...

Sepenuh jiwaku...

truly wholeheartedly...

Jangan pernah ada tersimpan prasangka....

never keep any doubts...

Di pelukmu 'ku sandarkan seluruh hidupku....

I lay my whole life in you arms....

dan tak'kan terbagi....

and I will not ever turn away from you....

Percayalah, cintaku hanya untukmu....

trust me, my love is for you and for you only...

The Diary; for you only...

SEPTEMBER

It's September already. Rain pours every day and every day without him is a painfull moment. When the clock is heading to late afternoon hour, the sky begins to darken and greyish clouds start to gather.

I look out my window and watch as the rain drops on the roof outside my window. Somehow, I love watching every drop of the water falling from the deep dark grey sky above. I feel like I can see him in every single drop of the rain. Missing him is not the biggest burden, I can handle it. Loving him is easy, because he is so lovable. It's just a dark shadow behind him that always caught in my eyes. Tailing him wherever he goes. Nothing I can do about it. Everyone has a dark side. I just have to deal with it, whatever it takes.

No one knows how scared I was inside to let him into my life. A complete stranger. Someone that I don't know of. But the chemistry is just so damn strong! Chemistry that never happened before. It's against all my principles and beliefs. But then I thought this is just the way of my life should go. So, be it.

[what a moody day! i don't even know what i'm writing!]