Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Outside the rain begins, and the dusk is getting older as the day grows darker. She sits at the roof top, letting herself drawn in the cool and rainy weather. Under the orange sky of the city. She wipes her tears in despair. Her wish is nothing but a simple thing. But it is too simple that it seems to be impossible to come true. Sometimes complicated things are more likely to come true. She only wants to have someone by her side. She is drawn in her own desperacy. Her life seems to be ended very soon, but still there is no words.

She has made up her mind. She will be no longer waiting in vain and despair. She sees no future anymore. Not for her. Not for him. Not for them together. So, when the pain is getting worse, that is the right time to let go. Because she believes that letting go is the only way out for the situation.

The sky above her is glistening. The rain apparently had stopped a minute before. But the mist of it still lingers around her, gave her a gentle wet touch. She feels her heart beats slower. Beats in vain, for she has no one to come home to. No one to turn herself to. Worthless, is the word that she has been telling herself lately. Worthless and unwanted. It has been several times she tried to convinced herself that someone out there might be her knight in shining armour, but later on, she never find anybody would come closer.

1 comment:

Narcist_astrajingga said...

its start with the rain, and it will be over whe the rain pass us by.
november has alot of rain
november has a untold story.
u can hear those when the rain drops on your soul.
november...has gone.
still you there with mocha latte?

Ps: regards to your lover.